Back Where I started

I am suddenly in the world’s eyes

So far into the night

The darkness is unsettling

And the light seems unprecedented

Hope seems to be savior

Everytime I try

Holding me up, high up in the sky

A picture that you painted

Lasted only a day

It faded, even before we could say

The one thing that mattered

So, here I am

Lost and lonely again

At the mercy of the world

Embracing the change

And hoping, never to get hurt

I'm carrying through
what I know is wrong
I'm breaking into
An image so strong

My thoughts collide
Crashing into one another
and shattering my insides

The teenage pop confusion
still remains in the depths of me
Forcing out another side
That is unknown to me

Help me clear out the ghosts
that have fogged my window
Dust away the cabinet
That locks my shadow

It's time to sneak out
and rejoice the darkness
Feel the coolness of the night breeze
And the warmth of the moonlight

Just as I began my walk
Towards what seemed to be the end
The road began to turn
It took me to a place
Where I thought I was headed

Oh!
How wrong was I?
How simply uninspiring
For me to have chosen
The short path.

Look around, the trees whisper
Look how they have chosen their way
Left a long unnoticeable trail

As i set out
Yet again
On the path i have chosen
I leave the shadows
And their trail

Move towards the end
For there lies my beginning.

"Beyond myself
somewhere
I wait for my arrival"

- From "The Balcony" by Octavio Paz

How can I know what you're thinking?
How can I feel what you’re sensing?
How do I know what you’re missing?
When you are so far far away

What is it that you see when you look at my picture?
Does it comfort you or do you still miss her?
Close your eyes and picture us on a highway
What is the reason that you lose your way?

How is it that you know what i’m saying?
Life is a dream that you make up
There’s a real you that’s hidden away
So deep inside that’s its afraid to stay

Why is it that you tremble then i walk past?
The reason is unknown and that frustrates me
What is it that you know about me that I am shaking?
Its seems so hard yet I’m trying

How can I know what you're thinking?
How can I feel what you’re sensing?
Now you find that i’m missing
Fading in a world far far away

The glass broke with a shattering noise
Looking around, I hear no voice
Not a soul but me

The phantoms have sprung up
Making their way through the madness of the place
Run for your lives
Before they eat you alive
Fear is what they feed on
Terror is their domain

I was standing blindfolded
I ran towards it but could not control it
They sped past me
In different shades
Dark and bright
In many ways grey

The inky black space that threatened to swallow me
I longed to be happy fresh and free

The phantoms are closing in
Devouring my thoughts
Giving in
I think no more

Love

A violent whisper
A careless kiss
The woes of a flamboyant love

Caressing the deep passion
With a stranger amidst

A cut that lasts forever
A wound refuses to heal
The jealousy that fades away
And tenderness goes waste

Does it really last that long
A love that’s gone wrong

Two lives in turmoil

Float away in bleak pain
There’s desperation and disdain

Writhing and twisting to break free
Towards happiness that seems so sweet

You’re done for one time
And pray it to be the last time